Friday, March 16, 2012

Fire and the Flood




This song is a light in the darkness for a very solid reason for me. A few years ago, I had decided that at the end of the season, I’d drop out of the church choir. I was unhappy, and it just wasn’t fun for me anymore. It was just bad. I was firm in my decision when, at our parish annual meeting, the priest and the choir director announced their retirement. I was both startled and overjoyed: startled because I’m not good with change, and I was fond of the priest. I was filled with joy at the thought of a new choir director and organist.

As far as I could tell, God had just dropped a cosmic miracle in my lap. I began to pray. “Please, God” I began, “Send us a man. You and I both know that organ sounds better when a man is playing.” I prayed every night in earnest during the process of finding a new organist, leaving the specifics in the hands of the Almighty. Okay, I admit, I dropped hints along the way. The praying was no less earnest, though. Every night, same prayer: Send us a man, oh Lord. Please! After a few short weeks, the news came in that both candidates were male. I rejoiced, and I dropped more hints.

Long story short: on August 17, 2008, we installed our incredibly talented young organist on his birthday. His nine months as our organist were the happiest months I’d had since my involvement in the Diocese of Olympia in high school. Needless to say, I stayed on in choir for those nine months. In what could have been an incredibly dark time in my life, I prayed. My prayers were answered in a very real, understandable, and positive way. I am forever changed for the better because of those first months of earnest prayer, and for the many prayers that have followed.
“Fire and the Flood” reminds me to be mindful of the prayers I lift as I’m falling asleep, but to pray nonetheless. When I feel like I know better than God, I listen to “Fire and the Flood,” look for the angelic writing on the wall, and pray. What could be putting out my fire could flood someone else’s river.
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Thursday, March 15, 2012

Jueves


“Jueves” by La Oreja de Van Gogh (“Thursday” by Van Gogh’s Ear)

This song is in Spanish, so here are the lyrics:

Si fuera más guapa y un poco más lista,
Si fuera especial, si fuera de revista,
Tendría el valor de cruzar el vagón
Y preguntarte quién eres.

Te sientas enfrente y ni te imaginas
Que llevo por ti mi falda más bonita,
Y al verte lanzar un bostezo al cristal
Se inundan mis pupilas.

De pronto me miras, te miro y suspiras,
Yo cierro los ojos tu apartas la vista,
Apenas respiro me hago pequeñita
Y me pongo a temblar.

Y así pasan los días de lunes a viernes,
Como las golondrinas del poema de Becquer,
De estación a estación,
En frente tu y yo va y viene el silencio.

De pronto me miras, te miro y suspiras,
Yo cierro los ojos tu apartas la vista,
Apenas respiro me hago pequeñita
Y me pongo a temblar.

Y entonces ocurre, despiertan mis labios,
Pronuncian tu nombre tartamudeando,
Supongo que piensas que chica mas tonta,
Y me quiero morir.

Pero el tiempo se para,
Te acercas diciendo,
“Yo aun no te conozco y ya te echaba de menos”,
Cada mañana rechazo el directo y elijo este tren.

Y ya estamos llegando, mi vida ha cambiado,
Un día especial este 11 de marzo,
Me tomas la mano, llegamos a un túnel
Que apaga la luz.

Te encuentro la cara gracias a mis manos, me vuelvo valiente y te beso en los labios, dices que me quieres y yo te regalo el último soplo de mi corazón.

This song never fails to make me tear up, and in doing so it washes away all my stress, all my pain, all my fear. The last line is what really does it: “Dices que me quieres, y yo te regalo el último soplo de mi corazón.” Translated, it means “You say that you love me, and I give to you the very last murmur of my heart.” I think about love quite a lot, and this line strikes me as uniquely descriptive of what love really is: giving your heart, your soul, your very being to the one you love. And, as always, love works the same way with God as it does with people. We give up our hearts to Him and are filled with His love: love that overcomes pain, guilt, and fear.

La paz de Dios y muchos abrazos...
Dans la paix de Dieu et beaucoup de câlins...
The peace of God and lots of hugs.

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Wednesday, March 14, 2012

The Wolves




Bon Iver is one of my favorite artists, and I have probably listened to this song 100 times. I’ll admit I don’t have a clue what words Justin Vernon is singing most of the time, but I don’t feel that I have to because the music speaks for itself. A haunting song, “The Wolves (Act I and II)” is tranquil yet chaotic, beautiful and a little weird. When this song comes on, I’ll always stop what I’m doing just to enjoy the experience of listening to it. It gives me an escape from what I’m doing, wiping my mind momentarily of irrelevant thoughts and worries. Ultimately it grounds me solidly in the now (rather than the past or the future).

This song reminds me that it’s important to take time out of each day to step back and be grateful for the simpler things that I’m often too preoccupied to notice or take account of. For this, I pray to God that I can maintain the clarity and sense of peace I feel after listening to this song, and that I will never lose sight of this simple things in life and about it that are truly most important to me.

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Tuesday, March 13, 2012

We're All in This Together



Several years ago I discovered and became an instant fan of www.postsecret.com, a site where people anonymously send their secrets to a stranger (Frank Warren), and he posts them online. A while back Frank received a burned CD from someone confessing to secretly burning CDs and mailing them to strangers. Frank posted a playlist of all the songs on the CD, and I quickly tracked them down myself.

I loved the whole list, but this was my favorite. By itself the song has a beautiful message, but it's even better when I think about the stranger who burned it, the stranger who posted it, and all the other strangers who, like me, now love it. All of us have this one thing in common, and if we have one thing, maybe we can have a lot more.

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Monday, March 12, 2012

Born at the Right Time




The entire album Rhythm of the Saints is a light for me. It always makes me dance, sing, and feel uplifted. I realize that much of the music that I used to love listening to in my teens and twenties is actually kind of depressing (although beautiful). An exception to that is Paul Simon, who has meaningful lyrics but whose music also has an upbeat sound that I can listen to all the time.

About this song in particular: it is the first song that we sang to our newborn, Eleanor. This song makes me think of her, which always makes me happy! Also, I love the idea of a village of people singing a song to a newborn baby to welcome him/her into the world, and this song seems to me to be a welcoming song. I hope that all people who listen to it may feel welcomed by those around them, and of course, by God, who welcomes all people into LOVE.

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Sunday, March 11, 2012

The Middle



I actually got kinda excited for Lent this year … like I’m finally old enough to really delve in and do some thinking this season. I found my devotional early and thought over what I would do. It’s a sad time, with the nakedness of the church and all, but it’s kind of happy this year, the idea of getting closer to God. 

The time for everything to be just fine for me is two minutes and forty-five seconds. In this time, my heart sinks all the way to the floor and then rockets up to the ceiling. My thinking gets completely turned around and I get to be alright. This song taught me to forgive those who made me feel down, to know that how I feel is under my control. It taught me to keep a look out for other “little girls,” people who feel powerless, and tell them too. It doesn’t tell me how to live or what to do; it just says I’m best when I’m genuine, and it’s right.  
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Friday, March 9, 2012

Wings



This song, besides being a good song to listen to, is a very meaningful song as well. This song means to me that you should never give up, push through any obstacles in your way, and when you get pushed down, get back down and pursue what you’re going for … despite the song being about Nikes and playing basketball.

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